Here I am, nearing 40 in a relationship I can't feel sure about, behaving like a teenager...and not in a good way either... not in a reckless, in love, knickerless through a cornfield kind of way...
No it seems at the moment, I am totally incapable of knowing what is best for me, so I either behave impulsively or rely on other people to make decisions for me.
Where have my frontal lobes gone???
I continue to try to have a baby to try to make Neil happy, just like a teenager has unprotected sex because her boyfriend pressures her to.
And like a teenager I wonder about how he will react. Not if I get pregnant, but if I don't. A teenager would worry that her boyfriend wouldn't stick by her if she got up the duff, I wonder how he will react if I don't. Will he take his sperm elsewhere????
I will be relieved when the whole pregnancy thing is off the agenda.
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